FINDING SAVANNAH

Sometimes I ask myself, who am I? What makes me a writer? I compare myself to those who say as soon as they could put pen to paper, they knew they wanted to be a writer. That was not me. Although, I made lots of things up. I had an imaginary friend named Tina. I choreographed countless musicals that my mom and her friends had to be subjected to. I made up stories for English homework. I made up poems and songs and all kinds of improvisational skits in my theater days. But be a writer? Who me? No. That was for smart, magical people. People who were special. I couldn’t do that.

Or could I?

Throughout this wondrous and gut-wrenching journey of writing my own novels, I have come to the realization that I am a writer. That I belong here amongst the special, magical people simply because I write. And, the more I write, the more I put myself out there, the more I realize that I like to write all kinds of things. If you run across me on tumblr, you’ll find Savannah the poet or inspirational writer. On this blog, I’m Savannah the thoughtful, writing about my writing journey. As President of Windy City RWA, I write the Dare to SOAR posts on their Blowing Kisses blog. There, I’m Savannah the cheerleader and pep-talker. If you happen to work with me, you are treated to emails about our rules and regulations, that I’m told are both humorous and memorable, and may have actually featured Refrigerator Gnomes at one time. And, one day, hopefully soon, you’ll get to read my novels where I’m Savannah the Romantic Fantasy Writer. So, in thinking about it. I am all these things. In finding my writer-self and letting myself express what’s on the inside in all these different ways, I have become a better, more fulfilled person, every day. And that’s what really counts, isn’t it? Doing what you love. And I’m in love with writing, even if I didn’t realize how much until I started to take myself as a writer seriously.

If you like to get into the minds of writers, you might find these blogs interesting: Cici Edward, Dyanne Davis, and India Powers.

BE BRAVE

My last post was almost three whole years ago. It’s hard to imagine what I’ve been doing that whole time away. But I have been doing things. Things that have filled my writer’s well, things that have helped me to hone my craft, and things that have helped me grow as an author.

I’m in my second term as president of Windy City RWA. It’s hard work, it’s time-consuming, but all in all, it’s worth it. I needed to put myself in the middle of it all and even hold some of the reigns in order to feel like I could play with the big dogs. The problem with holding a board position, especially president, is that there is little time to actually write. I spend more time writing emails than I do my stories and who knows, maybe that’s resistance, maybe that’s my unconscious using presidential duties as an avoidance behavior. We all have them. Whether they are because of fear of failure or fear of success, they are the undoing of many a writer.

So, this year I will be brave. I have ventured into the realm of self-publishing and my goal is to have my first book published by the end of 2015. Wish me self-discipline and motivation, and a little luck never hurt either 🙂

Cheers to my bestie Cici Edward and good friend Dyanne Davis who are taking that brave step forward to push themselves into new territory and out of their comfort zones. Check them out and cheer them on!

What will you do that’s brave?